I find that even though I've graduated, worked my way through school, talked to school counsellors and career councillors, and been through C.A.L.M. I'm not even the slightest bit ready for life after school. For college, for bills, for living on my own, for life after school. I find I'm here just petrified and frozen, still, shut down and unable to begin life. I feel like no one actually prepared me for any of it! I find that I don't know where to begin with or what to do about:
-credit cards
-bills
-apartments
-job interviews and
- school
-career
-life
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life, what my career should be, where I want to find myself!
The worst part is I'm not alone! I know so many people who have no idea what they're doing, who felt unprepared and scare, who are just running around blind! And I guess that they just must be braver than me because they all just went out into the world as confused and worried as they were!
But honestly, is it not a problem that there are so many students heading off to college or jumping into the world with no clue? Feeling totally unprepared? Terrified but feeling foolish because they're so lost?
Maybe that's the way it's always been..... but it seems to me the confusion and worry is just increasing even though we have more to help prepare us? How is it that this preparation is failing like this?
Hmmmm...
All I know is that I'm staying up late, unable to sleep, worried that I won't figure it out.... that I'll just fail and then get stuck in my small town, with a bad job and no life.
I'm petrified!
HELP
K
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