Drowning

“that moment when deep down you know something is true but you just refuse to see and to admit it…and then you realize you have to or things will get so much worse….and you are frozen in fear of what you might discover but you can’t stop moving forward because you know you have to….yea I’m drowning in this moment….sinking deeper….losing myself…..wishing the water would overtake me…hiding me from the pain, confusion and loss ahead….wanting to plunge in the deep darkness below the surface….to get lost in the perfect beauty of drowning….if only..”

Love

“sometimes I forget to breathe…when you watch me with those dark eyes….only realizing when my chest aches….you look away and I take that chance….to stare at you….drinking in your beauty….that untamed strength…you can’t see the fierce hunger boldly written across my face…undisguised….my face flushes….warm and bright as I bite my lip…to keep from saying your name….to keep for calling you…gathering your attention…so I can whisper all the things that are hidden….here…locked inside my mind….I want you…I need you…I ache for you…I burn for you….forcing myself to look away before you see….before you catch me…before you discover all this passion…hidden in me….waiting for you….I look back to catch your eyes on me again…you smile….that sweet, oblivious perfection of yours…such honesty…steals my breath again…”

Ramblings About You

You drive me crazy...it's this burning ache that never goes away....you know I adore you but you can't fathom the intensity of my feelings....I NEED, LOVE, WANT, ACHE, BURN, LUST, CRY, FEEL for you....and you have no idea how much I wish my feelings were returned....I know you care about me....I  know you think I'm attractive...I know that you want me happy...I know that you don't feel to the depth that I do...and sadly I don't think that you ever will...it makes my heart hurt....my chest burns....my body aches...my soul trembles....please be mine

You

“I keep sitting here….thinking about you…you captivate me….with your roughness…your passion…your intelligence….your sense of humour….your compassion….your intensity….your fever….your curiosity….your spontaneity….your looks….you just draw me in…I fall harder and harder every day…I think I might be falling in love with you….and it terrifies me because I know you don’t feel the same”

You Own Me

Not till he has turned his eyes on you, dark with need…until he has smoothed his hands over your skin, learning your body, tantalizing with the simplest touch…until then you will not know want, you will not understand hunger, you will never feel this burning desire that fills me….this unending, ever-lingering passion simmering under my skin….only he can discover it and only he can satisfy it.

Ache

I see you and I smile...I can't help it. You make me laugh, you pull me in, drawing me further into the perfection of your insanity. I am lost in the simplicity of the way we are when we talk....I do not understand how it can be so lovely. And yet it is so imperfect....I am so lost, so corrupted by your rugged sincerity. You are so completely honest, so open it's as if a beautiful book is laid before me with its endless tranquillity and pure chaos. A book that's words escape me, I am floundering, reaching for their beautiful strength. Why are you so hard to capture? A flickering light so captivating but so unattainable...I cannot understand your simplicity with all its hidden complexity. I wish I could discover the secret to your golden soul. I wouldn't want to tame your rough edges or smooth your wild heart....I just burn to steal your breathe like you snatch mine away.

And sadly...you can never see this.....

Long Gone

Guys always take me for granted and I fight for their love and they think it's okay to just ignore me and act like I don't matter......then I get fed up and I move on.....then they realize what they've lost and that they really do love me....so I'm moving on and moving forward....and they're there stuck thinking about the past and what idiots they are.....good job guys...will I ever meet a smart guy?