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Picnik Delights

So in my spare time I Picnik photos that I like.....Here are a few of my faves.

HMMMM...

I'm thinking that maybe I should just give up on dating and relationships right now....I just don't think it's working out for me. I find that I'm too possessive and clingy for people to want to be with me. I hate it and I'm trying not to be like that but nevertheless that is just the way I am. I'm getting better but it's still not that great.

So I think unless this turns around, it shall just be work, friends and dancing with some blogging thrown in there for this lady.

Love K

Confessions

1. I am quite the flirt...I can't really help it! I'm mostly just really friendly and just have a bit of a sexual edge so it seems like I'm flirting with you. When I really like someone, I have a tendency to be not so smooth and in fact very shy and nervous. If I'm confident and flirty, you are probably just a friend or someone I care about.

2. When I'm with someone, I have a tendency to be nervous, jealous and sometimes a little distrusting but I think I'm worth it. If I love you, I will give you my everything, I will be devoted and I will be a great friend as well as girlfriend.

3. My two biggest fears are :

• To become crippled, blind/deaf or otherwise physically changed in an accident.
• To end up living my life alone...to realize at the end of it, I have no one and no one will miss me.

4. I worry that I really am not normal and that I don't think I fit into this world quite right. Like maybe I am missing something or I wasn't meant for this....

5. Some moments I am ridiculously confident in my looks, personality and skills...other days I can't imagine why anyone would like me.

Love K

FAVES

My fave pics from my photoshoots....

Grad Dress

Just me and a sheet

Fuckin EH

So I feel a little like outta touch this morning....like my morals are dissolving? Like I'm losing my values, beliefs and code....or maybe is it just evolving? I feel like what I used to know no longer applies....like I was so wrong then or maybe I'm all wrong now....? I used to have such straight forward ethics and morals and now I feel like there are a thousand shades of grey and hundred variations of black and white.

Is this the way we change as humans? With growth and maturity? I mean many I hold up to the same degree and some have changed...others have been seen as false and misleading...my mind is a jungle and the path ahead in life is a twisted mess full of booby traps and no directions...

K

Another Shoot

Me and Zack went to the lake for another photoshoot! Here's the results..

HMMM

I don't know if I know what love is....sometimes I think I know and that maybe I even feel it.

Is it that burning want to speak to them right now? Is it a suffocating need to hold them, touch them, hear their voice? Is it wishing you could have them here, beside you, all the time? Is it a passion for them loving you? Is it a hunger to make them happier than imaginable?
Is it adoring their quirks? Is it them making laugh with a incredible ease? Is it wanting them to smile for you all the time? Is it yearning for them to say your name, to call you beautiful, to hear them laugh? Is it wanting to help them reach all their goals? Is it wanting to be the reason they aim to be better? Is it wanting them to only want to see you? Is it being scared that they won't want you? Is it being afraid of hurting them?
IS this love?

K

LOVE

So I find myself wavering in my beliefs about love. I have always been a passionate believer in love, soul mates and forever with "The One". I believed in fairy tales, that spark and happily ever after. I longed for my Romeo, my Prince Charming, or even better my Mr. Darcy. I was enchanted.... and impatient.

Now I sit here and wonder is love real? Is there really such a thing as soul mates? Is "The One" really out there waiting for me? Searching just as impatiently and vigorously? Have we all been tricked by story, imagination and hope to believe in this beautiful, powerful emotion to make it all seem that more amazing and worthwhile? Is it all really just infatuation and attraction? I sit here and ponder....

My views and beliefs have for now settled on these beliefs.

• Love does exist but some settle without it.
• Love does not always last. There are many kinds of love. Some brief, some enduring.
• Soul mates do exist but not everyone finds theirs. Some may not have one (still pondering on that).
• Love is beautiful. Love is cruel.
• Fairy tales sometimes do exist. 

That's all I have figured out for now. I have a few theories I'm still working on.

So I sit, waiting to see if I am right and I do have a soul mate out there.

Always

K
P.S. If your wondering why I why I still believe some fairy tales do exist, well didn't you watch the wedding of Wills and Kate? Couldn't that be a bit of a fairy tale? Not that it hasn't been rough at times or that there may still be troubles but then again not all fairy tales run smooth eh?

XOXOX

Piece of Heaven

I lay in a field, upon the sweet grass, feel of the blades the bending against my back,

Gentle sigh, slipping into sweet slumber, the sun glowing, warm glance over my face,

Reaching my arms up, stretching my whole body, feeling a heavenly pull and release,

A soft breeze caresses my skin, inspiring my dress to slide over my calves and thighs,

Scent of fertile earth, saccharine wildflowers, lush grass, fresh pure air overwhelms,

Clouds flow above, white marring the simple perfection of pure cerulean blue sky,

Birds swoop, dive, playing in said perfection, their cries sweet, resounding accents,

I close my eyes, basking in the glory of this moment, lingering in my piece of heaven.

All For You

I am the passion, the burning flame, consuming you slowly, pulling you deep into the fire,
I weep for your touch, the rough feel of your hands upon me, coarse impatient clutching,
I hunger for the taste of your lips, smooth sensual kisses, clinging sweetness on my skin,
I ache for sensual movement, feel of you holding me, lingering caresses, delicious hold,
I was made for you, I was born to feel you against me, I live for your loving, Always.

Playing With My HAIR

Yea I was bored so I decided to play with my hair and then take a bunch of pics with my laptop! Then I went on Picnik and had a good time....SO this is the results!

Yea I know...I'm totally weird but that's me and this is what I do sometimes when I'm bored!

Love
K

A Realization

Please read the WHOLE note!! THX
Just recently I discovered some people I know were swingers and I was HORRIFIED!! How could people who were respectable citizens, who were role models for children, could possibly participate in such a dirty, immoral pursuit as that. I mean they're part of a large group with swapping, parties and crazy stuff like that! Then I realized I was judgning them for their lifestyle choice, for what they feel, for their happiness! They aren't hurting anyone and it's not anyone elses business. I am ashamed that I judged them! So many times people have condemned me for my decisions, thoughts, and beliefs. I am furious for the pain they have caused me and here I am completely ready to do it to this couple? They are honestly the nicest, most decent people I know. I think it was partly me not expecting it, partly not understanding their choice and partly a slight feeling of betrayal that they weren't exactly what I thought they were. But then isn't that a large part of people's attitude toward gays, lesbains and bisexuals? They resent them because they are not what they expect, not what they understand? People always fear what they do not understand, not what they expect and they lash out in they're fear!

Well all I want to say is that no matter your decisions, your belief, your thoughts, your lifestyle choice (as long as your choice is not hurting others), I accept you! I will see past the fear of the unusual to the beautiful people right there!

K

Beauiful The Way You Are

Selena Gomez -Who Says

I wouldn't wanna be anybody else.
You made me insecure
Told me I wasn’t good enough
But who are you to judge
When you’re a diamond in the rough
I’m sure you got some things
You’d like to change about yourself
But when it comes to me
I wouldn’t want to be anybody else

Na na na
Na na na

I’m no beauty queen
I’m just beautiful me

Na na na
Na na na

You’ve got every right
To a beautiful life
C'mon

Who says
Who says you’re not perfect
Who says you’re not worth it
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting
Trust me
That’s the price of beauty
Who says you’re not pretty
Who says you’re not beautiful
Who says

It’s such a funny thing
How nothing’s funny when it’s you
You tell ‘em what you mean
But they keep whiting out the truth
It’s like a work of art
That never gets to see the light
Keep you beneath the stars
Won’t let you touch the sky
There's more but that generally gathers the point I wanna say! Everyone, every girl, every boy, everyone is a beautiful person! There is always something about someone that is just gorgeous. I think the idea behind this song and the beautiful way she went around putting this song and that idea together was just beautiful! Shout out to Selena for such a beautiful song!!

I just want to say that everyone should love and respect their bodies. I believe that even if it's not the most beautiful one you ever saw or even if it's not that good, you have to love it and care for it because the more you love it, the more you take care of yourself, the more confidence you exudeto the world around you, the more beautiful and sexy you seem to everyone around you! :D find that beauty, that unique, goregous quality about yourself, find your confidence and let the whole world see!

You are all beautiful to me...always <3

Love
K

READY...SET...G..G...G...

I find that even though I've graduated, worked my way through school, talked to school counsellors and career councillors, and been through C.A.L.M. I'm not even the slightest bit ready for life after school. For college, for bills, for living on my own, for life after school. I find I'm here just petrified and frozen, still, shut down and unable to begin life. I feel like no one actually prepared me for any of it! I find that I don't know where to begin with or what to do about:
-credit cards
-bills
-apartments
-job interviews and 
- school
-career
-life
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life, what my career should be, where I want to find myself!

The worst part is I'm not alone! I know so many people who have no idea what they're doing, who felt unprepared and scare, who are just running around blind! And I guess that they just must be braver than me because they all just went out into the world as confused and worried as they were!
But honestly, is it not a problem that there are so many students heading off to college or jumping into the world with no clue? Feeling totally unprepared? Terrified but feeling foolish because they're so lost?

Maybe that's the way it's always been..... but it seems to me the confusion and worry is just increasing even though we have more to help prepare us? How is it that this preparation is failing like this?

Hmmmm...

All I know is that I'm staying up late, unable to sleep, worried that I won't figure it out.... that I'll just fail and then get stuck in my small town, with a bad job and no life.

I'm petrified!
HELP

K

Random

So I just saw this totally amazing picture and have decided this WILL be in my house someday! I just had to share it with you guys!

Now that is a staircase!! And I would always use the slide to go down! :)

LOVE

K

Emo Night

So a few months ago me and my good friend Sable did an emo night together! Which was pretty much dressing up and doing our make-up like EMOS! Yea it was pretty much silly and a good time! So these are a few shots of that night!

So that was our night! Some crazy laughs, a ton of make-up, some wicked shots with some decent editing! That's a good night with me and Sable!

LOVE
K

Luela

My friend, Luela made a homemade note on facebook (versus those copy and paste ones) about all her friends! Now everytime I'm sad or feel down about myself, I read her note and I feel amazing about myself and feel so proud to have friends like her! <3

So this note is dedicated to Lulu and how she's there when you need and knows just what to say to make a person see the good in them! I LOVE YOU GIRL <3

Here is the clip about me posted in her note!

Kaitlyn (The diva)—K is a diva, and everyone knows it. Out of all my friends, she is the one that has the strut. The walk of a model, where your hips shake, your hair seems to look like fans are blowing it back. She has a sense of confidence that is mind blowing which sets her apart from other people. She has great sense of fashion and never looks like anybody else in the school, she always looks different and great. She could be wearing a big old baggy sweater, and strut her stuff and make it look like it should be in a fashion magazine. Another thing that sets her apart is the fact that she is not stuck up at all, towards anyone. She is always willing to be friends with anyone willing to be friends with her.

Thanks again girl
K

Photo Time

Last night me and a few friends decided to do a photoshoot together! So my friends, Luela and Zack brought there cameras and equipment and me, Luela and Sable all modeled! It was a great time with alot of laughs and good shots in my basement!! So these are a few teaser photos and hopefully I'll get some more sent to me to post!! Enjoy!!





Luela and Zack- the PHOTOGRAPHERS become the MODELS




Sable is my Best Friend and the Most BEAUTIFUL Girl I know





So I decided to be a little CRAZY and do a few shots in just a sheet! That is the result!

A Lil Beautiful Nakedness

Well that's my little teaser of the photoshoot and hopefully I have some more shots to post soon!

<3
K