Moments...

Back to those moments that change you... those moments that effect your whole world.
Back to that someone..that guy that changed me, my outlook, my life!

When I first met him, I didn't really talk to him at first. Then he struck up a conversation with me and I was mesmerized. When he smiled at something I said for the first time, he stole my breath away! I've heard that line a thousand times but I never understood how that was possible. Now I understand...so much it hurts! His voice makes me tremble down to my very core and his laugh reverbates through my body with a divine perfection! I sound like I'm crazy...HA I feel as if I'm crazy! But more than any of that it's his personality that keeps my soul enchanted! He makes me want to write poem after poem...something I have not longed for in years! I may seem young and foolish..maybe I am but I will revel in the foolishness of my love, of my insanity, of my change!
Back to him...
He has this intricate yet simplistic array of morals. He sees the world in such a different view... it plays with my mind. He has this bone-deep caring personality. He hates to hurt anyone. He's nerdy and dorky yet cool, strong and confident! He is a thousand contradictions, a million mysteries and yet exactly what I desire...his only fault I can find is that he does not share my feelings! HA but isnt that always the way!
So from the side I care, I long, I dream, I ache, I wish.....

K

JAY

So this blog is about one of my friends from TINYCHAT!!
Jay aka jayjaydamoonman!
He's one of the people who make T.C. a so amazing. He's really chill, funny, caring and sweet! So many times when I've had a bad day or am just feeling really down about myself, Jay just sweeps in and cheers me up! He makes me smile and laugh so easily sometimes it's just ridiculous!
Jay's an amazing friend that I don't want to lose!
I <3 u JAY!!!
LOVE
K

Moments

There are moments that you sit there and you just know that this moment will change your life. They will change your outlook, thoughts, dreams, even your personality!
Moments like:
-when your pronounced husband and wife
-when your baby is born
-when you graduate
-when you fall in love
-when you find your career
-when you achieve a dream
-when you witness something so powerful it shocks your soul
- when you make a mistake that tilts your world
-when you meet someone who challenges your beliefs

I`ve had a few moments that I believe changed my life, changed me.
One is when I lost a close friend to drugs...it tore my heart apart and I knew then that I would never do drugs or get high or anything of that sort. I also knew I would never let myself love an addict or let a friend follow that path again.
Another would be when I let go of something so precious and important, it shattered my soul and it took me a while to put the pieces back together...well actually I think I still am.
It makes you realize how much a moment mean when you really look at life and all its moments. There are always moments leading up to that moment but it`s not until that pinnacle moment that your life is changed...or maybe it`s more that is the moment that you realize your life has changed. Maybe each life changing moment has an after-moment when you realize that your life has changed. No only some do. Some moments don`t need that after-moment..sometimes you just know.
There has been another moment lately. I met someone who has changed my outlook,...changed how I see myself and others...made me rethink some of my goals, my beliefs, my desires. Strange how one person can change everything and yet nothing.
In one small moment.
love
K

Changes

So I'm going to change my blog a little. Up till now, it's been very random and pointless which I believe is the reason I don't keep up with it. I sincerely would like to change that. I've been foolishly writing my blog to interest or please others but that in its self is boring. Now I'm merely going to write about my feelings, views and thoughts which is what it should have been from the start. If that interests you and you enjoy reading that, then fantastic. If you don't and I don't really have readers, then oh well and it will just be my personal diary of thoughts, convictions and random things that pop into my head and end up here.

love
K