Thursday, March 31, 2011

A Realization

Please read the WHOLE note!! THX
Just recently I discovered some people I know were swingers and I was HORRIFIED!! How could people who were respectable citizens, who were role models for children, could possibly participate in such a dirty, immoral pursuit as that. I mean they're part of a large group with swapping, parties and crazy stuff like that! Then I realized I was judgning them for their lifestyle choice, for what they feel, for their happiness! They aren't hurting anyone and it's not anyone elses business. I am ashamed that I judged them! So many times people have condemned me for my decisions, thoughts, and beliefs. I am furious for the pain they have caused me and here I am completely ready to do it to this couple? They are honestly the nicest, most decent people I know. I think it was partly me not expecting it, partly not understanding their choice and partly a slight feeling of betrayal that they weren't exactly what I thought they were. But then isn't that a large part of people's attitude toward gays, lesbains and bisexuals? They resent them because they are not what they expect, not what they understand? People always fear what they do not understand, not what they expect and they lash out in they're fear!

Well all I want to say is that no matter your decisions, your belief, your thoughts, your lifestyle choice (as long as your choice is not hurting others), I accept you! I will see past the fear of the unusual to the beautiful people right there!

K

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Beauiful The Way You Are

Selena Gomez -Who Says

I wouldn't wanna be anybody else.
You made me insecure
Told me I wasn’t good enough
But who are you to judge
When you’re a diamond in the rough
I’m sure you got some things
You’d like to change about yourself
But when it comes to me
I wouldn’t want to be anybody else

Na na na
Na na na

I’m no beauty queen
I’m just beautiful me

Na na na
Na na na

You’ve got every right
To a beautiful life
C'mon

Who says
Who says you’re not perfect
Who says you’re not worth it
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting
Trust me
That’s the price of beauty
Who says you’re not pretty
Who says you’re not beautiful
Who says

It’s such a funny thing
How nothing’s funny when it’s you
You tell ‘em what you mean
But they keep whiting out the truth
It’s like a work of art
That never gets to see the light
Keep you beneath the stars
Won’t let you touch the sky
There's more but that generally gathers the point I wanna say! Everyone, every girl, every boy, everyone is a beautiful person! There is always something about someone that is just gorgeous. I think the idea behind this song and the beautiful way she went around putting this song and that idea together was just beautiful! Shout out to Selena for such a beautiful song!!

I just want to say that everyone should love and respect their bodies. I believe that even if it's not the most beautiful one you ever saw or even if it's not that good, you have to love it and care for it because the more you love it, the more you take care of yourself, the more confidence you exudeto the world around you, the more beautiful and sexy you seem to everyone around you! :D find that beauty, that unique, goregous quality about yourself, find your confidence and let the whole world see!

You are all beautiful to me...always <3

Love
K

Thursday, March 3, 2011

READY...SET...G..G...G...

I find that even though I've graduated, worked my way through school, talked to school counsellors and career councillors, and been through C.A.L.M. I'm not even the slightest bit ready for life after school. For college, for bills, for living on my own, for life after school. I find I'm here just petrified and frozen, still, shut down and unable to begin life. I feel like no one actually prepared me for any of it! I find that I don't know where to begin with or what to do about:
-credit cards
-bills
-apartments
-job interviews and 
- school
-career
-life
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life, what my career should be, where I want to find myself!

The worst part is I'm not alone! I know so many people who have no idea what they're doing, who felt unprepared and scare, who are just running around blind! And I guess that they just must be braver than me because they all just went out into the world as confused and worried as they were!
But honestly, is it not a problem that there are so many students heading off to college or jumping into the world with no clue? Feeling totally unprepared? Terrified but feeling foolish because they're so lost?

Maybe that's the way it's always been..... but it seems to me the confusion and worry is just increasing even though we have more to help prepare us? How is it that this preparation is failing like this?

Hmmmm...

All I know is that I'm staying up late, unable to sleep, worried that I won't figure it out.... that I'll just fail and then get stuck in my small town, with a bad job and no life.

I'm petrified!
HELP

K