Drowning

“that moment when deep down you know something is true but you just refuse to see and to admit it…and then you realize you have to or things will get so much worse….and you are frozen in fear of what you might discover but you can’t stop moving forward because you know you have to….yea I’m drowning in this moment….sinking deeper….losing myself…..wishing the water would overtake me…hiding me from the pain, confusion and loss ahead….wanting to plunge in the deep darkness below the surface….to get lost in the perfect beauty of drowning….if only..”